Just a thought

At Tnua time on Tuesday (22nd March) I had a bizarre revelation, no doubt not entirely unexpected xonsiderin the type of classes I'm attending on machon. I decided that if I don't believe that the Torah came directly from G-d then why on earth do I believe in any of it. I'm in a incredibly confusing place of being pulled between wanting to be more religious/observant than I was pre shnat and not being sure I should follow any of it.